I’ve just come back from Greenbelt feeling stiff and tired. I don’t like camping. I don’t like the noise other people make when they are in their tents and think no one can hear them because they are “inside”. I don’t like sleeping on the ground or portaloos, or even queueing for the loo. I don’t like not being able to shower. Ok so I could shower but it would mean getting dressed first, walking to the shower, taking off clothes and trying to hang them where they won’t also get showered, putting said clothes back on again after and then having nowhere to hang my towel up after. I go 4 days without a shower: lots of wet wipes and body spray!!
So why do I endue Greenbelt? Because I like it. I like the atmosphere. Its ok to be there and never go to a single talk and anything at all. I like the fact that the whole thing isn’t about expecting God to get on and do things while we all sing happy clappy songs or go about our regular lives, but is about how as Christians we should be looking at issues of injustice and seeing how God expects us to do something about it, either in our regular lives or stepping out. It is about seeing how we can change the whole world. It is about how amazing God is for loving everyone; the losers, the freaks, the middle classes, the working classes, those who get the issues and those who don’t, the gays, the lesbians, the transsexuals, the heterosexuals, those who’ve admitted to following Jesus and those who haven’t, the tattooed, the pierced, the Muslim, the Jew, the Buddhist, the Pagan, the Protestant, the Catholic, the young, the old, those who are open about who they are and those who want to pretend they are something they are not. I love the fact that Greenbelt isn’t about the great things God can do but about how great God is in loving us all.
I had a great time too. I was volunteering in The Tank and was part of the one-stop animation team. I was the only one who’d done it last year but everyone else joined in and we muddled along nicely and had a great time. In total over the weekend there were 9 children’s sessions and 3 adult sessions. We all “worked” for about 6 hours a day supporting and helping. It was fun. I like the volunteering as, for me, that is an important part of who I am and why I go to things. I have grown beyond just being able to go and get.
I got to take communion with a group known as Grace, where, along with 1-200 other people, we were encouraged to look at vulnerability and breakthrough and God’s vulnerability. I saw various bands: Why? who were one of the first Christian bands I ever bought, great hip hop; The Temperance Society who were a very loud rock band; and King Kool who were an awful middle age rock band. I heard a great African man tell his life in poems against the background of dealing with his father having just had a stroke. I joined with a friend and her friends and most of the rest of the Greenbelt
crowd to take communion on a slightly drizzly Sunday morning. And I finished the weekend, before Ian came to pick me up, with Beer and Hymns.
This year the weather was much kinder than last and I didn’t have to wear my wellies at all even though we did have a bit of drizzle a few times.
Also this was the first year I came on my own. Tabitha couldn’t make it as she was volunteering on a children’s camp till the Friday and slept all weekend. I must say I was a bit nervous beforehand of not having anyone to go to anything with, to share things with, but in fact I loved it. I loved the whole thing of being able to potter round and make decisions at the last moment, and then change my mind if I got bored. I went to a couple of events where I got bored or tired and left halfway through. I didn’t have to check if anyone else cared whether I stayed of went. I caught up with friends too when I wanted to, managing to have a pint in the Jesus Arms and talk continuously with one friend, covering loads of ground in just half an hour. And also got introduced to other people, but I found I didn’t need to “cling” to anyone as I was content on my own. Is this a sign that maybe I’ve been journeying to this whole thing of “love your neighbour as yourself” that I have reached a point that I don’t just love myself but am also content with myself and my own company?